You changed my life,
You gave me a reason to smile, 
You showed you cared, 
Days without you, seem so long,
And empty,
I long to hold you in my arms, 
Close my eyes and feel your arms around me,
To just rest there, with you beside me
I miss you when you're not around.
But i cannot voice out..
For you might not hear..
Get out of that grey world,
And take a journey with me,
For as long as we shall exist.

Je voudrais telment pouvoir m'endormir dans tes bras;
et ne plus avoir a me reveiller

Les erreurs ne se regrettent pas,
elle s'assument..
La peur ne se fuit pas, 
elle se surmonte..
L'amour ne se crie pas,
il se prouve

Quand on aime, 
On s'accroche, 
On trouve des solutions..
Car si on fuit, 
A la fin de la journée, il ne reste rien dans notre vie....

Life...

What do we do when we find the true love of our life 
After having gotten married to somebody else.

I Carry Your Heart With Me

These days, this poem kept coming into my mind..

It describes what i wanna say well

I carry your heart with me - E.e Cummings

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) 
I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; 
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) 
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Love & Caution

Cautiousness and love,
Can it really be used together, 
And what about care,
The choice of words can sometimes say a lot, 
Funny how the heart still refuses to see,
What words can say,
Love, such a strong word, 
Depending on the person's heart..
It will be as strong as the person's emotions,
Somebody once said: True love brings courage, 
It brings strength and faith, 
It should be the support,  the constant
Instead of being the variable,
Like air around us,
Vital to our survival, 
But so volatile at the same time, 
And the earth rotates anyway......

Send Me A Sign

Written, 03rd September 2015

Where have you disappeared mon coeur, 
The moment I need you the most, 
The moment I need you to reassure me, 
Why are you not hearing, 
How much my heart cries, 
Why are you not seeing the tears, 
Why are you not feeling the pain and suffering, 
I need you here, 
I need to hear your voice, 
I need to look in your eyes, 
Don't let this silence be permanent, 
Please come back and send me a sign,
Today I need a sign...

Witten, 29th July 2015

This pain....
Its like the heart is dying
A slow and dreadful death
With every second that goes by
I know the pain will not stop
So maybe when the heart has died
All emotions will just not exist anymore 
Hopefully a positive outcome will result
From this immense suffering

Written, 30th June 2015

I already compromised with life and we walked down the path we chose. So lets just take responsibility and do what is expected of us. Coz we already lost what we had and now we've got nothing left to lose anyway...

The Game Life Plays

Everyone says "life is simple, we just have to listen to our heart the whole way".
We should not forget that we live in a jungle like society here, where the norms are very harsh.
We could have decided only for us today and piss off the universe.
But in the end we had be so tired and frustrated fighting this fucked up society that we would not have been happy.......

Sometimes we are tempted to just leave everything and just think for ourselves.
But i wouldn't be able to have your little princess go through all this.
We made choices at certain checkpoint in life, we handled our sadness in two different ways and now we have to assume the consequences and responsibility of those choices.

Sometimes i ask myself "what does life has in reserve for us?"
We meet, we learn, we appreciate, we get close and we fall in love.
Then we have no other choice than to be separated from each other.
Only make our path meet again and again.
Once a year by coincidence, calls for birthdays, see each other the moment we least expect and to final admit that those emotions remain the same after five years.
What kind of game is destiny playing.
We keep on getting close and separated only to meet again and again.
What are you trying to tell us?
Now after so may years, when either one of us has a separate life of our own.
Where we are fine and only fine.
While these five years could not make us more than just fine.
Everytime we meet, we do feel this magnetism and have to put in so much of ourselves to pull away from each other.

How many years more will we do that?
How many years more will we keep going?
How many years more will we continue to be just fine?
How many years more........

Keeper of my heart, angel who embraced my soul and brought it to life,
Guardian of my happiness and my life...

How many years more....

I look at you, 

You look at me. 

I smile, 

You smile.

Why can't you admit you like me!

Dated 28 Jun 12

Never trust, 

Don't let your guard down, 

The head kept saying,

But the heart did not listen, 

N it died with all the lies he told, 

For he never meant what he said, 

The sweet words only a web of lie.

Dated 05 Mar 12

Kate Voegele sang:

   "You can't break a broken heart"

But you can certainly break the already torn pieces into dust.

Dated 17 Feb 12

All You Need

At this moment there are 7,018,463,085 people in the world.
Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men, at war with good.
And some are good, struggling with evil.
Seven billion people in the world.
Seven billion souls.
And sometimes - all you need is one

Unvoiced Desires

I don't want a man who covers me with gifts and jewelry,
But with his time, care, kisses and hugs,
His understanding and support,
And who doesn't have to be shared.

The heart cry out and long for,
Something the head knows is a fantasy,
But the heart still wanna hope,
Even though the head keep shouting:

"stupid- give up"

The Goodbye

J'aurais voulu te garder dans mes bras pour toujours,
Meme l'éternité m'aurai parut trop courte

The Buried Emotions

We came across each other,
As strangers we shared a smiled,
We shared arguments and laughs,
To finally share so much,
But only to be reminded that it should be forgotten,
For our paths have to part no matter what we do,
Unasked emotions emerged,
But still they had to be buried,
Everytime i think about that day,
It would make me smile.

The Organ That Always Betray You

Lock it,

Build a wall around it,

Put it in a bunker,

Close the door inside,

Bury it 7 feet under ground,

So that it does not go down that thorny road again,

Where at each step you lose a piece of it.

Name The Game

Appearing out of nowhere,
To revive buried emotions,
Knowing too well the effect you have
Only to stomp on them again and again
Then disappear.
Tell me the name of your new game.
Seeming to be pure bliss for you.
Is that cruelty, inhumanity or viciousness the name

Everything Breaks

Everything breaks.
Some things just hurt more than others.....