Quand on aime, 
On s'accroche, 
On trouve des solutions..
Car si on fuit, 
A la fin de la journée, il ne reste rien dans notre vie....

Life...

What do we do when we find the true love of our life 
After having gotten married to somebody else.

I Carry Your Heart With Me

These days, this poem kept coming into my mind..

It describes what i wanna say well

I carry your heart with me - E.e Cummings

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) 
I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; 
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) 
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Love & Caution

Cautiousness and love,
Can it really be used together, 
And what about care,
The choice of words can sometimes say a lot, 
Funny how the heart still refuses to see,
What words can say,
Love, such a strong word, 
Depending on the person's heart..
It will be as strong as the person's emotions,
Somebody once said: True love brings courage, 
It brings strength and faith, 
It should be the support,  the constant
Instead of being the variable,
Like air around us,
Vital to our survival, 
But so volatile at the same time, 
And the earth rotates anyway......

Send Me A Sign

Written, 03rd September 2015

Where have you disappeared mon coeur, 
The moment I need you the most, 
The moment I need you to reassure me, 
Why are you not hearing, 
How much my heart cries, 
Why are you not seeing the tears, 
Why are you not feeling the pain and suffering, 
I need you here, 
I need to hear your voice, 
I need to look in your eyes, 
Don't let this silence be permanent, 
Please come back and send me a sign,
Today I need a sign...

Witten, 29th July 2015

This pain....
Its like the heart is dying
A slow and dreadful death
With every second that goes by
I know the pain will not stop
So maybe when the heart has died
All emotions will just not exist anymore 
Hopefully a positive outcome will result
From this immense suffering

Written, 30th June 2015

I already compromised with life and we walked down the path we chose. So lets just take responsibility and do what is expected of us. Coz we already lost what we had and now we've got nothing left to lose anyway...

The Game Life Plays

Everyone says "life is simple, we just have to listen to our heart the whole way".
We should not forget that we live in a jungle like society here, where the norms are very harsh.
We could have decided only for us today and piss off the universe.
But in the end we had be so tired and frustrated fighting this fucked up society that we would not have been happy.......

Sometimes we are tempted to just leave everything and just think for ourselves.
But i wouldn't be able to have your little princess go through all this.
We made choices at certain checkpoint in life, we handled our sadness in two different ways and now we have to assume the consequences and responsibility of those choices.

Sometimes i ask myself "what does life has in reserve for us?"
We meet, we learn, we appreciate, we get close and we fall in love.
Then we have no other choice than to be separated from each other.
Only make our path meet again and again.
Once a year by coincidence, calls for birthdays, see each other the moment we least expect and to final admit that those emotions remain the same after five years.
What kind of game is destiny playing.
We keep on getting close and separated only to meet again and again.
What are you trying to tell us?
Now after so may years, when either one of us has a separate life of our own.
Where we are fine and only fine.
While these five years could not make us more than just fine.
Everytime we meet, we do feel this magnetism and have to put in so much of ourselves to pull away from each other.

How many years more will we do that?
How many years more will we keep going?
How many years more will we continue to be just fine?
How many years more........

Keeper of my heart, angel who embraced my soul and brought it to life,
Guardian of my happiness and my life...

How many years more....